I 'm getting a little worn out listening to everyone sing about God. How's that for a line from a missionary who helps run a worship ministry? What I'm saying is that I seem to keep hearing people sing about God and hearing how little they know Him themselves. It makes me sad and tired. Funny how you can really hear the difference in just the way a song plays out or in a conversation. God is great and mighty and all-powerful and all that stuff.....of course...and that demands singing about because He is worth it. But lately, it seems to me that there is an emptiness to many of these songs. While that may sound like blasphemy to a bunch of people, it's not. The emptiness in declaring God's almightiness comes when that's all we know. So many "Christians" are living on rumors and stories of someone else's relationship with Jesus. But, I am THE BRIDE of Christ. And brides don't live on rumors of their spouses, they live on an intimate knowledge of their husband!
The stories we hear are testimonies. These testimonies are meant to give us hunger for the real Jesus so we can get through the "Holy, Holy, Holy, Alpha and Omega, First and Last, Almighty, God of Abraham and everyone else but me" Jesus and find out what all that intimacy is that Solomon keeps singing about. Now THAT is a worship song I want to sing. Lets sing that song that comes from the heart of someone who has actually been in bed with Jesus.
I'm not just talking about busting through the emptiness of religion, either. I am talking about deep, deep, deep knowledge of this one we have served for so long and not known why. People are starting to get suspicious as to why we would serve someone we have never seen. Heck, that suspicion and lack of deep love for Jesus in my heart is what has plunged me forward. I have to know Him. I've really been allowed to see more of who Jesus really is the past 6 months than I have in the last 6 years. And, the deeper He takes me, the less like super-almighty, untouchable God He seems to me; and more and more I see my lover and my friend. Meanwhile, I am overwhelmed by the fact that God, with all those titles, has an intimate spot just for me in Him. That just makes the intimacy more sweet and a lot of those lofty songs seem so much like abandoned mansions--glorious to look at for tourists, but not really home.
Well, I want to be home. I want to live with Jesus. And, trust me, when you really begin to see Him, you won't wanna just sing about how great He is-- you're gonna want to go to your secret garden with Him and become part of Him and then carry His fragrance all over you all the time--inside and out. Lovers who are intimate smell like each other. I want to smell like Him.
I see a time coming when many of us won't even be able to get off the floor most of the day because we just don't want to. We're going to start understanding His "weighty glory" that people talk charismatically about all the time. We will know Him. When we do, then we will know that His touch is the touch of a real lover and that touch is interactive! His love overwhelms us while inciting us to action and rest and peace all at the same time. This lover is the one who invented love! That's what we will find in the holy of holies. That is what I want.
I know now that Jesus is all mine and I am all His. There is an intimacy that blazes between us and that is always calling me deeper into Him. It is having His liquid love rush over me and through me that causes me to fully know what Holy really means. I am set apart just for Him. And, when you are set apart by the most Almighty, Holy, Highly Exalted King of Heaven, you know you are very, very special. That is me. And there is room for you in Him. Let's go in and go home.
